I was recently accepted as a volunteer photographer in an organization called Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep. For those who aren’t familiar with it, NILMDTS is an organization of photographers from all over the world that donate their time and talent to families of stillborn or critically ill children.
This organization is very dear to my heart because we have experienced infant loss in my own family. We don’t talk about it very much but when I was three years old I had a sister who was born still. Her name is Cassie. I have always wished that we had a picture of her so that I could know what she looked like. My mom has tried to describe her to us, but it isn’t the same as having a real photo. More than 20 years later I know my mom would give anything to have just one picture of her. I know she is proud of me for doing this.
When I first heard about NILMDTS it stirred up a lot of emotions in me and I knew it was something I wanted to help with. This spring I went to several photography seminars where they were recruiting photographers and I decided to go for it. I know if it were me in that position, I would want these photos. When these parents should be experiencing joy, they are instead having their hearts broken, the very least I can do is help to provide this service. I’m sure it will be both emotionally challenging and very rewarding.
Last week I got called to do my first real session. I had assisted in one session previously. It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be but still sad. After I was finished and went to leave the room the mom gave me a hug. When she hugged me I knew that I was doing something important, something that could help ease her pain.
For the other photographers out there…. this is a service that is needed everywhere. If you’re interested or want more information, check out the NILMDTS website.
If you are not a photographer and want to contribute, the organization is always in need of donations.
Check out their website
Here is a story about it that recently aired on the Today Show. Very touching. Video
4 comments
Ahhh!!!! I was JUST thinking about this organization today and how much I want to be a part of it! I was introduced to this program at a seminar, and it made me BAWL!!! I need to be a part of this! Thanks for posting this and reminding me!!
You are amazing. I don’t know how you do it. It would be so hard for me and most people I am sure.
i am glad you posted about this. I think it is an awesome thing you are doing. i even started crying a little bit when i read this! geezzz i am emotional!
Erin, this is so cool. How wonderful of you! My family has been touched by this as well. When I was about 10, my mom had twin boys stillborn and it was a heartbreaking experience. Luckily my mom did get a couple pictures, but they aren’t very good. Just the ones they do at the hospital. I’m sure this will be one of your most memorable and rewarding experiences in your life. Way to go!!!